February 2012
5 posts
nyc.
I’ve realized tonight that people who willingly choose to come to nyc are completely and utterly fucked up in someway or another. People who are perfectly content an know exactly where they want to go in life do not come to New York. They go to a normal place where they are free to pursue what they are passionate about. People who come to New York are confused. They lack the stability that...
"go with finance, choose reality."
Whywhywhy.
I also feel like I look completely unapproachable when I was walking around. I always have my headphones in, and I walk briskly, to say the least. While I guess I do get a strange power kick out of walking like a bitch, I always secretly wish that a stranger would approach me for a conversation. Maybe this is my test to see who really has the cajones to talk to me….
ntrs-strch:
My friend...
I have seen the others, and I have discovered....
high hopes, low expectations.
While this is a logical and sensible rule to live by, it should not be confused (as I have easily done) with expecting the mediocre for myself. I deserve more. At the very least, I deserve respect. I need to know that I deserve the great, but be wise enough to not easily invest my trust in others to give that to me.
January 2012
3 posts
so excited to go back home.
to nyc that is.
“you are the sexual roller coaster of my latter teens. What we have, it is...”
– g
if only i possessed the artistic ability to charm...
December 2011
12 posts
"let's be seventies lovers"
YESSSSSSS.
moments.
I honestly am a believer that moments are eternal. The rest of my life could come crashing down the day after, and nothing could ever be good again. But those moments are real, and always exist. Even if you end up completely despising the person, or the place, or the situation, or the feelings involved, nothing can disturb the existence of that moment. A few days ago, I had one of the greatest...
life's candy and the sun's a ball of butter.
and there’s cigarettes still smoking on the pavement.
IS 2011 ALREADY ALMOST OVER???? WHERE HAVE I...
alienabductionalienabductionalienabduction.
weirdnesss
I did the weirdest thing today. I wouldn’t consider myself a particularly nice person, nor a particularly mean person. But I gave my employee discount to this guy that I didn’t know really well and walked through the rain to go back with his money to buy the jacket he wanted and back to give it to him. I don’t even know this guy. I didn’t have to offer such a thing to him....
WHY DO I HAVE SUCH A WEAKNESS FOR HIPSTERS AND ALL...
touch.
Nicest thing in the world.
sometimes
I just do too much.
So then I do a lot of everything.
I refashion myself.
I feel more.
Feel less.
Feel ok.
Feel new.
Feel.
November 2011
3 posts
i never thought that i would resort to quoting...
But I am. Lately, since I have been single, I have been very occupied with just too much craziness. And no, not the typical craziness, SOME REAL ASS CRAZINESS. I would post on here but it’s too much for the internet. I don’t want to be all posh, but it is true; I am living the scandalous NYC life. However, this craziness is making me me crazy. I find myself constantly wondering, what...
pleaseeee watch. high school talent like you've... →
just living the scandalous nyc lifeeeee.
it is still sad at times.
October 2011
2 posts
this is love. →
blair and chuck break my heart.
September 2011
1 post
i miss my baby.
August 2011
2 posts
if you feel nosy reading my tumblr, then you...
ALSO STOP READING MY TUMBLR IF I DIDN’T ASK YOU TO.
strangers are welcome though <3
the pain.
The pain is terrible. It is utterly undesirable and just completely exhausting in every way. It is multi-dimensional, and stabs me in ever dimension and direction it can find. It’s here everyday. I find myself wondering sometimes how I even bear it. And the truth is, I can’t. But the other truth, I could relieve myself of it. But I choose not to because at the same time, this is the...
May 2011
2 posts
there really are some things that should just...
x.
I am truly so lucky. As I look back on my past and I think of all the ridiculous things I have done, I realize that there is no need for me to do them anymore. I no longer had to bend over backwards for someone, or manipulate myself and others. I can finally feel secure in being who I am so I can focus on being the best of me, and for once, deserving the love from the person who sees me all.
March 2011
1 post
February 2011
1 post
January 2011
9 posts
the rebirth of a tumblr
dylansfirstblog:
I’m not sure why I decided to revive my tumblr. It’s probably out of a desire to fan the flames of my ego with the notion that people might actually read this. If you are, thanks, and look for cool posts. That’s what people do on tumblr, right, post things?
This is me reblogging you. *strokes ego*
but i just don't want to.
I don’t want to hate the world. And why should I? Because I live a priviledged life? Because I have never known starvation? Because there are many who are much more underpriviledged than I? No. There is undoubtly suffering in the world. And there always will be. But I cannot hate society because it has put me in a position where I dont have to endure such suffering. I feel that for many,...
no matter.
The people in the past who have done us wrong are gone, because the pain they’ve caused no longer exist in the context of the present. We should treat them with acceptance, not quite forgiveness, but a sense of accepting them as a person and the present rol they take in your life. It is no use to hold a grudge, for that will only impair the happiness of the present, and make us more hateful....
WE ARE YOUNG!
We will never live, or learn, or love as fast as we do now.
amin mela lle: ∞ | on relationships. →
kaitlinvalerieryan-:
I’ve spent some time thinking about relationships. By “some time” I mean all of the moments in my life where I’ve felt this horrible feeling of longing for whomever my significant other may be. I feel as if everyone is fast forwarding through their relationships. We somehow skip the beginning and…
Last paragraph completed my night tonight. Thank you blogger.
i've almost forgotten about how great late nights...
sometimes
I get this fear inside me which comes from the thought that nothing last forever. We may be teengaers, but our feelings are ever constant, if not, even magnified by the brevity of our lives. I understand that life is about taking risks, but I’ve always been scared on the inside. Would I give it my all? And could I trust myself with the responsibility of such an option? Last night, I had a...
perfect
I’m going to the college of my dreams.
I’ve got an amazing boyfriend.
I’ve figured out who my close friends are.
I’m doing great in school.
I’ve got a great job.
But yet at times, I find myself crying without reason. Maybe it’s just a hormonal thing.
Whatever it is, it better stop soon.
"it's okay, you need it more than i do."
December 2010
7 posts
what do you expect from me?
You say you understand.
You say that you respect me.
You say that you don’t want me to compromise my situation.
You say that we can coexist.
You say we’ll never have a chance once this year is over.
You say that you want me to be happy.
You almost said the four letter word of how you feel towards me.
But you don’t know what you are doing. Because you are hindering me from...
can't breath, can't think.
In a casual conversation with Adam, a little role playing went down where I was pretending to be a certain interested male ended up in a spurt of his emotions all over my more than confused mindset. From Adam’s perspective towards other male, this was his refuting arguement about why he think he is the better choice:
“but you will regard her as a piece of property, that is all very...
respect is a two way street, no matter the age.
and love is never guaranteed, no exceptions.
my life is an italian opera.
running on empty.
and the truth is...: because i am a (fe)male... →
I LOVE YOU
alittlebyrdtoldme:
im so tired.
why is it so effing hot in here?
why i am so cold?
why are these kids not cooperating?
why are you speaking?
why are you so annoying?
am i really friends with you?
yesterday was so much better than today.
i hate my life.
i hate the stupid outfit i put on my ugly body today.
why is ms.b freaking out, god i hate her.
i hate it when the back button on my computer...
-_-
November 2010
31 posts
LOVESMOOTHIES
So. Much. Confusion.
ONLY TWO CHOICES.
already too many. *grumble
Sweetie
sweet
romantic
too romantic….too early
adorable
tall
genuine
kind
long-distance
NYU!!!
too naive and innocent for me
motivates me to be a better person and change
different from the usualy d-bags I date
makes me feel like a girl :D
Husband
understands me completely
very smart
the man i see myself...